Oh I forgot the most important thing I was going to post: prayer requests!

1) Pray for my grandpa. He’s lost his appetite recently and thus lost alot of weight. I’m really worried about his health…I pray that God would give him strength and vitality

2) My dog: my dog hasn’t been herself either. She used to be hyper and run around but these days she’s awfully quiet and lays around alot. She shakes alot too which is odd cus it’s pretty hot here in texas. My dog’s 7 years old which isn’t even old…she should live for around 14 years I believe?

3) My heart at work. I need to care more…to be humble…and to learn from my mistakes.

Almost a Full Year After Graduation

Wow it’s almost going to be a full year since my college graduation :O. What have I done? WHAT HAVE I DONE SINCE MY GRADUATION??

I went to Korea, took the MCAT, and worked for…SEVEN MONTHS! :O I don’t want to admit that I’ll have to be working to the least a year and seven months until I’m out of this job. I am learning still…learning work etiquettes…learning how to be in the bottom of the hierarchy at the work place. Mel and I agreed though that perhaps being at the bottom will help me be better at the top?

Today’s Bible study was so encouraging. Our teacher today discussed how there’s a season (such as the trial you’re going through) and a God-willed reason for it. Sometimes it’s a fact that’s hard to swallow because you want to be out of the tribulation God has placed you in. But it will pass…and you’ll hopefully understand later why the trial was given to you. Because no good stories happen without conflict. He talked about Joseph had to be sold as a slave by his family only to later be the second most powerful person in Egypt in his time. And Job lost all his possessions and his children only to be blessed by God hundreds times over later on. And recently in my quiet time I’ve read about David early years…how he was basically working for Saul who tried to kill him so many times. He even had to escape and act crazy by drooling all over the place and scratching doors to be free of persecution by Saul. Later on, David becomes one of the most renown King in the Bible. And in all these stories the author is God…and they were just characters in His story. Their trials were only a fraction of the story…and God used it to encourage people like me thousands of years later.

So despite what I’m going through at work…I need to still rejoice and remain steadfast in my faith. Because I know there’s a season for everything…and a reason…though I cannot understand it now.

Now for Frivolous Things…

I’ve gotten my mom into makeup too! I gave her two of my favorite blushes to use: Tarte’s exposed and dollface blush. I like the matte blushes more for work.

Recently my sister got me the…

Naked 2 palette! I’m still in the process of learning how to use eyeshadows.

Success or no?

Found this randomly at the DART station at West End one morning. Anybody missing their cane? haha

Dilemmaaaaaa

To go ahead and apply to med school or retake the mcat???

Stress

“A relaxed attitude lengthens life; jealousy rots it away.”

-Proverbs 14:30

“The life of the godly is full of light and joy, but the sinner’s light is snuffed out. Pride leads to arguments; those who take advice are wise.”

– Proverbs 13: 9-10

“Work hard and become a leader; be lazy and become a slave.”

– Proverbs 12:24

“Deceit fills the hearts that are plotting evil; joy fills hearts that are planning peace.”

-Proverbs 12:19-20

I need to meditate long and hard on God’s Word this weekend. I’m afraid I’m regressing back to my self before I became saved.

I find it difficult to find it sometimes to glorify God in my workplace. Recently a new stressor has been my coworker. I feel like she does less work than I do. I also think I’m more willing to help her than she is. I’ve been staying awake at night feeling…cheated? But I haven’t been giving this up to God because I feel like He’ll call me to do what I don’t want to do. And so I’ve been losing sleep being sinful. Then a Bible verse in Proverbs came up in my mind this morning…”Deceit fills the hearts that are plotting evil; joy fills hearts that are planning peace.” It is so relevant to my situation right now.

My life is not my own. I’m just a servant of God and my job…my future…are only instruments that should channel my efforts to glorify God. I’ve been feeling miffed because I felt that my coworker is too prideful to do things for me when I’m prideful too. That’s why I’ve been making a record in my head of the fact that she’s helping me less than I am. And that’s why I was thinking…I’m better than being her tool. How messed up is my thoughts right? I mean I shouldn’t be a pushover but maybe I’m thinking about it the wrong way. Maybe it’s just that I’m not being generous in my love for others. And so what if I do do more than my coworker? I’ll be gaining more from the workplace.

I think I’ll just have a talk with her if I need to next week. I’ll need to pray that God changes my heart. Any suggestions on how I should deal with this situation?