“A relaxed attitude lengthens life; jealousy rots it away.”
“The life of the godly is full of light and joy, but the sinner’s light is snuffed out. Pride leads to arguments; those who take advice are wise.”
– Proverbs 13: 9-10
“Work hard and become a leader; be lazy and become a slave.”
– Proverbs 12:24
“Deceit fills the hearts that are plotting evil; joy fills hearts that are planning peace.”
I need to meditate long and hard on God’s Word this weekend. I’m afraid I’m regressing back to my self before I became saved.
I find it difficult to find it sometimes to glorify God in my workplace. Recently a new stressor has been my coworker. I feel like she does less work than I do. I also think I’m more willing to help her than she is. I’ve been staying awake at night feeling…cheated? But I haven’t been giving this up to God because I feel like He’ll call me to do what I don’t want to do. And so I’ve been losing sleep being sinful. Then a Bible verse in Proverbs came up in my mind this morning…”Deceit fills the hearts that are plotting evil; joy fills hearts that are planning peace.” It is so relevant to my situation right now.
My life is not my own. I’m just a servant of God and my job…my future…are only instruments that should channel my efforts to glorify God. I’ve been feeling miffed because I felt that my coworker is too prideful to do things for me when I’m prideful too. That’s why I’ve been making a record in my head of the fact that she’s helping me less than I am. And that’s why I was thinking…I’m better than being her tool. How messed up is my thoughts right? I mean I shouldn’t be a pushover but maybe I’m thinking about it the wrong way. Maybe it’s just that I’m not being generous in my love for others. And so what if I do do more than my coworker? I’ll be gaining more from the workplace.
I think I’ll just have a talk with her if I need to next week. I’ll need to pray that God changes my heart. Any suggestions on how I should deal with this situation?