I had a pretty good Sunday this week. I’ve been getting to know the girls in my church more. Hopefully this means that I’ll a deeper relationship with them and the church. I hate just going to Bible study, going to worship, small talking after service, and then going home. Somehow it makes the church experience so empty. Church is the people after all.
Wow two of the girls at my church just recently got engaged. Their lives seem all set…their jobs and their future family is all set in place for them. Somehow it makes me feel so uncertain about my own future. This uncertainty and the fact that our pastor spoke about the crucifixion this Sunday made me really want to run to my Bible and read. I went to an outside mall and just started reading. It was so nice to meditate on God’s Word.
One of the questions we went over in Bible study was: Would you be able to respond to God’s calling despite the fact that your friends and family don’t like the idea?
Somehow God lead me to the passage of Judges 13:1-14:20. It is an early story of Samson. One I pretty much have forgotten about. It’s kind of a disturbing story but something I’m glad I read today. Samson is filled with the Spirit of the Lord even when we was young. I don’t think it necessarily meant it was impossible for him to make mistakes though. He sees a Philistine girl and decides that he wants to marry her. So he goes on telling his parents that we wants to wed the girl. The parents are opposed to this idea…saying that it would be a lot better for him to find a Jewish girl. But he insists that he wants to marry her. “His father and mother didn’t realize the Lord was creating an opportunity to disrupt the Philistines, who ruled over Israel at that time” (Judges 14:4). Later on, Samson actually becomes heartbroken and angry because the Philistines and his fiancee don’t embrace him. He ends up giving up his fiancee to his best man. God works in mysterious ways and in ways that we cannot fully understand until later. Or maybe even never. Samson probably didn’t know that God was working in his life…sometimes in painful ways. But later this experience gave way for the Jews to be free from their enslavement to the Philistines. I also see how God can even work through mistakes…such as how God worked through the Samson’s mistakes (even later on). Finally, it made me realize how God’s calling can sometimes be drastic and almost disagreeable to the people I love. I guess the trick is to know whether God is really speaking through the people around you or not. I wish I was filled with the Spirit of the Lord just as Samson was…so that I may glorify Him and be part of His amazing plan.
I’m listening to:
There is love that came for us
Humbled to a sinner’s cross you broke my shame and sinfuless you rose again victorious
Faithfulness none can deny through the storm and through the fire there is truth that sets me free Jesus Christ who lives in me
You are stronger you are stronger
Sin is broken you have saved me it is written Christ is risen Jesus you are Lord of all
No beginning and no end You’re my hope and my defense you came to seek and save the lost you paid it all upon the cross
So let your name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher be lifted higher